I don't know where to begin. I am so far past the end of my rope that I am not sure I should even allow myself a glass of wine to take the edge off--I may never stop.
Lots of little things have just added up to this day's suckiness. Rain, rain, did I mention rain? Ian's baseball cancelled, swim meet cancelled, but not until I drug three five year olds out in a downpour to wait for a bunch of grown-ups with absolutely no sense to determine what everyone already knew. Kids fighting nearly non-stop, grouchy moods prevailing, and finally a two and 1/2 yr old that I have to watch with eagle eyes to keep from destroying everything and anything in her path.
She colored on walls, dumped juice on the carpet, and to top off the day she got out of bed and emptied two bottles of shampoo all over the bathroom floor, rug, tub, and toilet. She also covered herself. I just finished giving a late night bath to a screaming child who did not have an ounce of remorse.
Kevin is out of town. I am going to head for my bed, and read. I am not sure that I have the energy left to do anything else. I am not big on self-pity, but tonight, just tonight, I am going to allow it. I was a lousy mom today, I know it, I admit it, and tomorrow I am going to change it. Goodnight!
4 comments:
Don't be too hard on yourself...tomorrow is a new day and this too shall pass! Big hugs to you on a lousy day!!
You can rub crayon off of painted walls with a slice of bread. No shit. Good luck.
P.S. I have a 50% success rate at being a "good mom"...you are entitled to be "off your game" this once.
Oh now. I feel for you. I hope today is better. Don't be too hard on yourself, you are a fabulous mom most days...so the kids "win" once in a while, you'll get them today. Hang in there!
I am much better today, as is little Hadley, so maybe I found what gets her attention? Thanks for all your support.
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