It aint like riding a bike...

The kids go to school-all day, well most of them. My little shadow is still here, listening to every word, reminding me that schedules still exist, hugs are still required, and God is much smarter than I am. I feel a little out of sorts. I did not expect this, but I am not sure what to do with my time. Oh--- that's not to say there aren't a million things to do, but where to begin seems to be more my problem. I have been using the kids as an excuse truth is methinks I hate cleaning. I don't really want an organized laundry room badly enough to make it happen. Weird huh? All this time I thought when the kids went to school, I would have no problem accomplishing things. I think it may be like brain cells. When something is dormant, like my willingness to tackle the house chores, long enough, it is not that easy to get back... For five years I have had to let things go. I am now wondering whether I am functionally able to focus on that stuff again?